my poor little guy is sick....
which means time will only tell when the other 2 come down w/ something...gotta love school, huh! a big germ sharing learning environment....
which reminds me....we had meet the teacher night tonight at kelly's school...i got to sit in her little desk...saw how messy she keeps it....looked through her little papers & books & got to see the world they way she does every day for 6 hours.....
and i'm going to admit....i'm having a hard time with this whole thing. i'm just so overprotective....and biased.....and completely not ready for all of this...i just want her to have the world, ya know? i remember kellicrowe writing this whole post about sheltering your children...and sometimes i feel like this world just pushes on little kids so much...stifles their individuality...squashes their independent thinking...puts too much pressure on them....tries to box them into little labels so that can be identified for studies and pilot programs....but they don't try to encourage acting like a 5 year old....being a kid...PLAYING!!! b/c there just isn't enough time between school, and homework, and the team activity, and the trip to target, and the chores, and their favorite TV program, and their coloring time, and their recommended 20 minutes of reading every night to just BE A KID!!! i totally buck the whole system in every way & i still feel like i can't fit it all in....i just know i think kelly is something special....i think her kind of individuality is something special....i think the fact that she plays with her brother & sister all day is something special...i just need to shelter her from all the pressure.....i just need to not give into that pressure & start pressuring her myself....wish me luck b/c if my past experience w/ "bucking the system" has taught me anything...it's taught me that once you decide to go against the tide...you are in for a constant battle....you are asked to defend your actions at every turn....
but kelly is worth it
geez this parenting stuff is tougher than i thought....
which reminds me of something else....
is sleeping in a big girl bed now....it is the absolutely cutest thing ever!!! she climbs in...tucks her little chubby body under the covers & grabs her little penguin & her mets bear & goes "nigh...nigh mommy....wuv u"....i swear tears well up in my eyes every time
& now all i can think of is how incredibly blessed i am.....despite the germs....despite the never ending struggle to find "the right thing to do"....despite the two year old power struggles and temper tantrums....despite the squashed cheerios all over my floors....despite the empty bank accounts....it still is completely overwhelming to think that these three amazing little people have been entrusted to my care...i truly am a lucky woman :)
hope you have a happy day!!!
xoxoxoxoxo
gi
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