i'm still here!!!

my poor little guy is sick....

which means time will only tell when the other 2 come down w/ something...gotta love school, huh!   a big germ sharing learning environment....

which reminds me....we had meet the teacher night tonight at kelly's school...i got to sit in her little desk...saw how messy she keeps it....looked through her little papers & books & got to see the world they way she does every day for 6 hours.....

and i'm going to admit....i'm having a hard time with this whole thing.  i'm just so overprotective....and biased.....and completely not ready for all of this...i just want her to have the world, ya know?    i remember kellicrowe writing this whole post about sheltering your children...and sometimes i feel like this world just pushes on little kids so much...stifles their individuality...squashes their independent thinking...puts too much pressure on them....tries to box them into little labels so that can be identified for studies and pilot programs....but they don't try to encourage acting like a 5 year old....being a kid...PLAYING!!!  b/c there just isn't enough time between school, and homework, and the team activity, and the trip to target, and the chores, and their favorite TV program, and their coloring time, and their recommended 20 minutes of reading every night to just BE A KID!!!  i totally buck the whole system in every way & i still feel like i can't fit it all in....i just know i think kelly is something special....i think her kind of individuality is something special....i think the fact that she plays with her brother & sister all day is something special...i just need to shelter her from all the pressure.....i just need to not give into that pressure & start pressuring her myself....wish me luck b/c if my past experience w/ "bucking the system" has taught me anything...it's taught me that once you decide to go against the tide...you are in for a constant battle....you are asked to defend your actions at every turn....

but kelly is worth it

geez this parenting stuff is tougher than i thought....

which reminds me of something else....

this girl...

is sleeping in a big girl bed now....it is the absolutely cutest thing ever!!!  she climbs in...tucks her little chubby body under the covers & grabs her little penguin & her mets bear & goes "nigh...nigh mommy....wuv u"....i swear tears well up in my eyes every time

& now all i can think of is how incredibly blessed i am.....despite the germs....despite the never ending struggle to find "the right thing to do"....despite the two year old power struggles and temper tantrums....despite the squashed cheerios all over my floors....despite the empty bank accounts....it still is completely overwhelming to think that these three amazing little people have been entrusted to my care...i truly am a lucky woman :)

hope you have a happy day!!!

xoxoxoxoxo

gi

Comments

[Nicole]

Totally agree with this entire post gigi...
And had to laugh because already this morning I was picking up cheerios off the floor and was crabby about it - so thanks for the reminder - we are so lucky :)

[kerry lynn]

they have the bestest mommy in the whole wide world who will fight for them and their individuality and their right to a childs world. the bestest!!!
love you!

[Lusi Austin]

i got really emotional reading your post gi cause i think the same way!
life is so short; these gorgeous beings (despite all the challenges) are in our care for such a short amount of time. i too don't want to be shipping them off left right and centre to be *doing* stuff instead of living life! we took our 3 for a little impromptu walk the other day before dinner and found an awesome waterfall!
hope your little man gets better soon :)
lusi x

[ellyn]

oh gigi - i so agree with you. i also had maddie's open house and saw what & how she spends her day. you put it perfectly!!! i want her to be a kid, experience the world the way a 5 (almost 6) year old should! i'm thankful she has a teacher that, yes gives a lot of homework (don't they all), but also realizes they are 5-6 and she pushes them to be independant and individuals.
on the germ end of things... i feel for you - had justin on the nebulizer at 5:30am, i'm also coming down with a cold - which should go away by june. oh well - back to school and everything that goes with it!!!

[lpmkate]

Wow - what a great post. Sorry you're having such a rough time with the school situation. I too need to take a deep breath and count my blessings as I deal with the tantrums and crushed food upon my floors.

And I see your child has been blessed with the tongue to nose gene! My hubby has it and a couple of my kids as well!

[anna]

complelty with you on the " being a kid " stuff. Infact i dont even make my 2 do "homework" at the weekend or holidays, i have always said, kids grow up far to quick these days, and seem to have to much responsibility on their little shoulders
Hope your boy is feeling better
hugs xxx

[Brigitte]

Hi Gigi,
your kiddies are sooo gorgeous, and hope your littleguy is better now and thanks for sharing your thoughts, yes they grow up so quick and yet at times we forget to stop and enjoy the little things....

[RondaPalazzari]

Gi....as a parent our job is to nuture our children and that is just what you are going...I think we put too much pressure not only on our kids but on ourselves as well. Time to just relax and enjoy the moment. Good for you...sending you lots of prayers, for the whole family and for fighting the fight. Some things are just so worth it.

[Petrina McDonald]

Oh G

I hear you.....

I know it too. It is the same for kids and mums all over the world. Don't be afraid to be the crazy mum and stand up for them - it's worth looking/feeling/being all silly and overprotective because you know that no matter what happens you are their mum and MUMS (MOMS!!!) ARE ALWAYS RIGHT!!

Love, P

[Deanna Thompson]

girl, I so needed this post today!

My lil man's preschool teacher and I are going around and around right now.
Basically, he is acting like a 3 year old and she is upset that he's not acting like everyone else...

I'm like...dude...he isn't like everyone else for a reason, give him a break! lol

anyway, I am so glad I stopped by to read this, cause we are having open house tonight and it just gave me the peace of mind to tell her she needs to back off a little.

and YAY for big girl beds!!!
xoxo,
deanna

[Anna M-W]

Hope your son is feeling better. Gi - your kids are so beautiful!