a heart that is happy?

i had steph's circle journal for WAY too long...& i finally was able to sit down & think...
steph had a really wonderful theme...what makes your heart happy?
well...in usually gi style i couldn't just pop in a bunch of happy things & send it on its way...
i sat w/ it...i contemplated...i would find myself in the shower thinking about it...

what makes my heart happy?
finally i came up with what i wanted to say...
it finally hit me...
what makes my heart happy?

well....truth is...i'm still searching for it...
don't get me wrong...i'm a pretty happy gal....i smile ALL the time...i laugh way too loud at restaurants and embarrass my proper friends who maintain grown up decorum....there are a ton of things that make me happy like the beach, fireworks, the smell of mike's shaving cream, waking up to new fallen snow, magnolia trees, tim tams, halloween and pumpkins, a new book, ice cream, hot coffee in the morning, chubby toddler elbows, my children's faces lit up by birthday candles...i could go on all day...

like i said...i'm a generally happy gal...but i'm still searching for that kind of happiness that would weather any emotional or physical pain...the kind of happiness that would stay steadfast despite suffering...because let's face it...all of the above could be gone in an instant...

and what i kept coming back to was Mother Theresa...she had it...she had that heart that was happy...that inner peace the transcended the material....she saw unimaginable suffering on a daily basis...she tended to those the world cast off...when she received the Nobel Peace Prize in 1979, she requested that instead of holding a big banquet in her honor that the money that would have been spent on the event be donated to the poor & suffering...

Mother Theresa had it...& it had nothing to do with fireworks or ice cream or clean sheets...
her heart was happy and it shone all over her face and to everyone she touched....& it wasn't that loopy-doopy the world is all sunshine & roses happiness...her happiness was strong too...

i wish for that....although, honestly, i'm pretty sure i'm not strong enough to sacrifice in the same manner...
that Mother Theresa was made of special stuff

In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.

Hope your heart is happy today :)

xoxoxoxoxo

gi

Comments

[Nicole]

Beautiful post Gigi! And a great sentiment to take in this time of year.

[Sam]

I totally get the Mother Theresa thing. And it is really hard to put into words. I would never give up what I have- kids, family, etc. But there is a piece of me that totally admires the selflessness that goes with that lifestyle. The need to have less, the need to give to others, and the ability to make the world a better place.

Peace!
Sam

[Stephanie Howell]

oh, wow.
i almost feel like i should have let you keep it.
you are amazing.

[kerry lynn]

needed to hear and see this today.
thanks gi... you are some kind of wonderful!
xo

[becky]

you are so wise g! love your reference to mother teresa....she really did get it. love the keepsake i have from you with her writings :) love you!

[Patty S]

awesome.
remember, happiness is a journey, not a destination.
hugs, patty :-)

[Petrina McDonald]

OMG G! What you have just said there has made me so happy I have tears running down my face! How the heck do you know just how to put all that into words that the rest of us can only dream of knowing how to say? You are so right. She just had that inner peace and knowledge that happiness is found in the simplest of things and not in what we have but what we can do. Truly an inspiration for all of us - makes me want to sit up and realise what life is all about and take NOTICE of the beauty all around me.
(And LOL! at the laughing too loud in restaurants - John just has to slink under the table if he is with me because I am way too embarrassing - lucky I don't give a fig!)
Like your red crochet flower ;-)
Love, P

[Bee Rozatti]

Hi G. . .I have on my blog Mother Theresa's poem "Do It Anyway" in the month of September if you could scroll to it. My husband & I honor Mother Theresa's life & work, in the same entry is a ink drawing my husband did of a black & white famous photograph of Mother Theresa and it hangs in our livingroom. When you have time: Again, in the month of September when I began my blog, it's one of my first entries.
http://brozatti.blogspot.com/ -I am not sure if the desire you are searching for his happiness but rather contentedness. Happiness seems more self serving where as contentedness is a state of being without the wanting or yearning. Great entry today. B

[anna]

beautiful Gigi, so well written and i love your crochet flower :)
hugs xx

[miss morgan]

you make a really good point. there are the little happy-makers and then there is the big happy. defenitly an interesting thought, and an awesome thing to be on the hunt for!

[beth]

hey there...i read this yesterday and haven't stopped thinking about what you wrote. thank you for sharing this!

[jennifer davis]

loved this post...thanks for sharing!

[Bek Geach]

***LOVE*** this Gigi.
You are an inspiration girl.
I am seriously impressed every time I come here!
You are real and I love you for sharing it and being able to put it into words so well.
Bx

[Bek Geach]

I agree with Petrina!
Bx