these past 5 days have been CRAZY busy...CRAZY full....CRAZY CRAZY....
i think i've spent the majority of the time in the truck....
or fiddling with seat belts in the truck...
and listening to "mama mia song"...
today is catch up day....
i have to catch up on my miles...because of the crazy schedule since friday morning i haven't been able to log any in & it is starting to make me nuts...i have gotten to the point where i need to run...i miss that pounding sound of my feet on the treadmill...the focusing on my breathing...the challenge & the accomplishment...i miss john stewart...lol
i have to catch up on the pile of papers that is steadily growing in my catch everything basket...
i have to...i want to catch up on recording my special memories in my everyday loves book...like when kate woke up from her nap & was looking for her roll over puppy....
umm...kate you don't have one?...
but mommy...i was playing with it in my bed...where my roll over pup-py?
roll over puppy? you mean the one you saw on the commercial?
sweetie you must have been dreaming!
or when kelly came home with some schoolwork where she had to list 2 wishes she would make if she found a magic pumpkin...she wrote:
i would wish for a horse and lots of candy corn
or how every single day when ryan gets off the bus he stands in the driveway & waves as it pulls away & then immidately runs up the steps, drops his backpack & runs onto the lawn to jump & play in the leaves...
yes...my days have been crazy busy...they've been flying by...but that have been chock full of good stuff...
which brings me to today's word up over at onelittleword...
jessi's turn this time & she chose a good one....IMAGINE...
at first i was stuck....just singing john lennon's song in my head over & over again...
& then i balked at it...thinking of something like "stop just imagining & get off your butt & DO something"...
but then it came to me as i pulled out my photos & sat down to scrap...
i saw our family photo from our hike last weekend & it struck me....
how different my life is than i could have ever imagined...how different I am than i ever could have imagined...
how when i used to think of growing up & being a wife & mother, i could never have imagined how it would change me...how my heart would grow so big that just even trying to describe how much i love & treasure my family, tears well up in my eyes & i am profoundly aware of just how freaking lucky i am....
how at church on sunday i am on my knees in front of that cross repeating over & over again..."thank you...thank you...thank you..."
when i was younger i may have focused on the material....the "having" of stuff when i got older & had a family....maybe i focused on what the requirements would be....what the expectations would be...
maybe i thought that was it...the stuff....the role...the stereotype...the whole image...
but now i am so accutely aware that all of that is so superflous to me...
yes it would be great to have a house out of the pottery barn catalog & a cleaning crew to go with it...
but if you asked me to make a wish...i would wish for the health & happiness of my family every.single.time...guaranteed...& i guess i'm still surprised that when it boils down to it, that is me...because i guess i never really imagined it would be....
so thanks jessi for this word...
now i'm off for a run before ryan's bus gets here...
hope you all have a wonderful day :)
xoxo
gi
p.s...thanks everyone so much for the "feel better" wishes...i'm feeling much better this week :)
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